I will never leave you

Lyrics | Erik Santos lyrics - I Will Never Leave You lyrics

Heard this song on IMEEM earlier.

Dedicate to you.. my baboyy

Sweet memories

Wow… I have been a lazy baboyy.

Guess I have performed disappearing act again.

Been through several weeks with mixed emotions.

Letter of retrenchments, gossips, rumors, mom’s and etc.

Guess things have settled down quite a fair bit.

Baboyy stayed over on 1st, 2nd, 6th and 8th.

1st – Missed spending time with her. Especially after the tiring exhibition. Asked her if it’s ok to go over to my place. Baboyy stayed over for the very 1st time.

2nd - Helped her with GP. She fell asleep. Thus stayed over.

6th- Work-related. Uncle asked her to stay over since it was already quite late. Initially, she doesn’t want to. After pleading her for awhile, baboyy stayed over for the 3rd time!

8th- Came over at around 12plus. Both of us were off on 9th.

Love having her around.

Love it when I can have her in my arms.

Love it when I can get to sleep with her.

Love the fact that I can get to see her before the day ends, and see her the moment I open my eyes.

Awwww… can I do it everyday? =x

Swapped off day with colleague yesterday.

On purpose.

=x

We woke up around 1plus. Ordered Mac, watched my all-time-favourite movie. Hope she have enjoyed it as much as I do. =x

Went to meet her ate(s) last night.

Had Korean BBQ with them.

Quite funny bunch of friends, I must say.

Hmmmm… I’m quite surprised that she told her friends that we have been together for a week.

Somehow… I guess.. everything is confirmed now. More stable. I am beginning to feel on earth. No longer hanging in the air.

Two things which must be learnt.

Freedom and trust.

Seems to have problem with these two for past relationships.

Have to learn how to execute these two appropriately.

I’m missing her at this very moment.. hmmmmm

Not too sure if she is affected with me going out with ex tonight.

Hmmmmm

Just want to say.. baboyy, I have promised to behave. I will behave. Hehe…

*muacks*

18th Post

My last entry was almost 10 days ago.

OMG.

I am getting lazier.

Hahaha...

Couple of stuff to update while they are still fresh in my mind.

25th Nov 2008 <--- One of the important date which needs to be remembered.

hahaha..

So exactly how's things between me and baboyy now?

Not too sure as of how to answer this question.

Hmmmm we are getting okay?

She's busy with exhibition, while I am busy with my stuff in showroom.

Gonna start to pack showroom later on.

Contractor mentioned that he will be coming to dismantle the display stand.

hmmmm.. I miss baboyy..

Miss hugging her.. hmmmmm

BUT!!! How come i got this feeling that she doesn't miss me at all.

Guess I must be too irritating.

Anyway, so what exactly happened on 25th of Nov?

That night, after hearing some stuff from a close colleagues. I was seriously touched by what she said.

I guess, someone must have really fallen for me.

=X

So I asked..

The other time, you mentioned that you are afraid that what if you are there, and I am not.

Few days later, you said now that you are there, and I am pushing you away.

So...

I asked...

Since you are already there, can I be there too?

No direct answer from her.

So I asked again,

Can I be with you?

More direct.... yet no direct answer.. Hmmmmm

Well well...

*shrug*

Baboyy... I miss you....

17th Post

Tired...

Sweaty badminton game.

Just got home not long ago. Took my shower. Hmmm intend to call baboyy later, to check on her, make sure she is alright.

She looks tired.

Hmmm... =/

think it's better for me not to ask her out for this week and next week.

Jho has hinted that "we" sleep so late every nights.

Oh well... Sorry baboyy!

Jho didn't join us today. According to her, low blood.

So.. ran a fair bit.

Sweat more.

Think I better go and see a chinese doc to treat my ankle.

Hmmm

Weird reaction from baboyy when i held her hand earlier.

Well well...

Didn't see her last night.

Was quite listless.

After the movie, i just tried my best to get home asap so that I can sms her or call her.

Hmmm

16 of november 1116. hmmmm

The day... she said she wants JK..

=)

16th Post

Hmmmmm, don't know why you doesn't want to talk to me..

*poutpout*

Dedicate one song to u...

15th Post

Posting this using the other laptop at the secret corner..

My favourite hiding place.

Hmmmm

Fun week!

Get to see baboyy a few times this week. (Though two of my surprises were being sabotaged.)

Quick Summary

Monday - Played badminton with Don, Jho & Baboyy

Tuesday - Baboyy went out with her ate(s) to Chinatown for dinner. Went to her place to pick her up. Went East Coast.

Wednesday - Did not meet baboyy. Baboyy went Clarke Quay with Gina & Lovely.

Thursday - Definitely never meet baboyy. Hehehe.. Baboyy went out with Jho.

Friday - Baboyy went to meet her friends. Picked her up at Orchard.

Saturday - Had dinner with Baboyy at Orchard Coffee Club.

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So yesterday was Saturday. Took leave to help aunt at her division event.

Tiring job. Though I keep telling her that I won't go again. But.. haha.. will still go if she needs my help. Sis and Aaron were quite reluctant to help. So... no choice...

By the time, the whole event ended, I was left 3 bars (out of 10 bars) of energy life. haha

Took aunt's car. Drove Wee home before proceeding to Orchard.

Don and Jho did not turn up.

Baboyy kept complaining that she is VERY VERY hungry.

So we decided to settle our dinner at Coffee Club.

Discussed and understand some issues better.

=X

Our company is going to have a club soon.

=x

Sent baboyy home at around 12plus.

Everton kept smsing me during dinner and even wrote me an long email.

When we reached baboyy's place, I showed her the email and she asked me to read it out.

Hmmmm someone's mood quite VERY affected. =x

Told her to trust me 100%, I don't know why but somehow... I feel very confident to ask her to trust me 100% and I will not betray her trust.

Hmmmm... well well.. Don't give me the "u sure? u sure? u sure?" look ah!! Hahaha

I will just give you the serious-look, "I AM SURE"

Somehow... it's quite difficult to pacify baboyy when she got affected.

I was told.. that I should be a little more sensitive some times.

Hahaha..

(Too happy to blog now...)

Anyway, someone took the initiative to kiss me for a couple of times yesterday. =x

Was quite surprised.

I realised that whenever she is saying something serious, I would sure missed it for no apparently reason.

I would have to coax her before she is willing to repeat.

Hahaha

So, I asked her the questions which I had in mind.

I asked her if she knows exactly how she feel about me now.

She counter-questioned me.

"What answer do you want to hear"

So I repeated my question again.

She said, "I like you. Yup, I like Jk."

=D Muwhahahaha Happy like nobody's business.

Posted another question to her.

"Are we g0od friends?"

She replied, "no".

So the Q & A continues.

And... the most important sentence for the day..

"I want you."

"I want JK."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I smiled upon hearing that.

Baboyy commented on the smile which was hanging on my face. She said that was the first time that she saw me with that smile.

Not too sure what smile she is referring... But.. was really super duper happy when I heard that from her.

Side Track: As I was posting this entry, I smiled when I tried recalling that special moment when she said that important sentence. Joanne and Jho saw. Asked me what I was thinking about. Jho even commented that how come I smile till like that. She has never seen me with such smile before. Coincidence? Or the gals have shared the information. Hahaha. Not really important. Happiness is meant to be shared.

Walked Baboyy home at around 3am. She gave me a kiss on the lips. Whahaha.. Melted..

This morning, saw her sms the moment I woke up. Sweettttt

Think I am going to get diabetics soonn...

Hmmm.. I miss hugging her.. =x

14th Post

Just got back.

Decided to post something while the feelings are still fresh and real.

Went out with Poly clicks earlier on. Ate Cafe Cartel at Raffles.

Been a long time since the 3 of us get to sit down, chat over dinner.

Talked about everything that is under the sun. Our each individual problems, relationship issues and etc.

Had fun.

After the dinner, went to Butterworth to get 1112. Met up with Baboyy at Tangs!

Was feeling quite bad that I've actually made her waited for more than 45 minutes.

Drove to Kallang Mac. Shared Meal. That baboyy was hungry cause she has only taken 2 pcs of chickens.

Drove back to her place.

We had a long long talk. From 1plus till 5. Broke the previous record again. But I am afraid that baboyy might not have enough sleep.

She asked about DL.

And I confessed that I was actually jealous.

In fact.. I thought of driving uncle's car to Baboyy's place tomorrow. To send her to SLS, at the same time, took some stocks from SLS and deliver to Funan.

BUT.

While driving into her house's car park, baboyy told me that Don will be giving her a ride to SLS tml.

Was being affected by this.

WHY?!

Haiz.. totally speechless.

I don't know.

Nobody can imagine how disappointed I was yesterday. And how annoyed I am at this very point of time. But...

Don't know.

Don't wish to say too much.

I confessed that I am jealous of DL.

Don't understand why the sudden nice treatment and etc.

Jho told me that I am thinking too much.

But the logic is,

Baboyy used to like Don alot.

and I have accidentally told Don that the person i like, used to like him before.

Definitely this sentence has boosted his ego and morale.

Logically, will treat baboyy better.

Of course, this is my personal opinion. Not necessary true.

Told baboyy, what I really want.

I want to end my stuff now.

Not that I can't tolerate her anymore. But I can't.

I want to be with Baboyy.

I want to take good care of her.

I want her to be happy.

But there's alot of things which I can't do all because I am attached.

I want to cherish this chance before it disappear again.

But.. somehow.. I got this feeling that Baboyy won't allow me to do so.

1) she will feel bad towards Stef as people will think that I have left Stef for baboyy.

2) She is scared that I might not be there.

But the actual fact which I hear it from Baboyy is

She doesn't know exactly the feelings that she have for me now.

I would be lying if I were to say I am not disappointed.

But I have promised her before that I won't expect anything from her.

Want to be with her, is also an expectation, right?

Exchanged a lot of stories.

Was shocked with her stories. She was too, with mine.

Baboyy, do you know how happy I am whenever I get to see u and hug u?

I don't know.

Are we just close friends....?

I am missing u now...

13th Post

Stupidity kills.

Hidden behind each individual's empty shell, there's tons of unexplainable truth and facts.

Real and unreal.

What's the difference?

Are we being confused with the reality or we are just staying in the comfort zone behind all the pretense.

You hear one sentence. But I might heard more than one.

Who can ever determine the genuineness of the truth which we hold?

Some people go by logic. Some people go by facts. Some people chose to believe what they think is right.

Determining the facts is no longer important.

Answers from majority rule and win.

Minority opinions can be discarded or overlooked.

If that's the case, why should we even label "truth" as truth?

Something worth pondering on. Don't you agree?

Just some random thoughts.

12th Post

Was off yesterday.

Baboyy called me around 4plus. She was in the toilet.

We chatted. Before we hung up, I told her, I miss her. She said she miss me too.

That makes my day super duper nice!

In fact, she said this sentence twice. Once in the afternoon. Once at night. Awww.. Melted.

Couldn't help it but kept thinking of that night.

Hmmmmmm

Can I rewind? To enjoy every single moment.... again?

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Everton smsed a couple of times.

Everton: Can u dun go be with her? Can i be with u? Can we start all over? :(


Everton: Sleep already huh? Can i go over early in the morning tml? If u mind then nvm.. Thought of bringing durians over...


Everton: I'll take it as a no to all my questions ba.. I almost finish closing shop. U have a good rest ba. Nite Nite.. Hugs..

Me: Hi hi, sorry.. was out earlier. dun tink its nice 2 ask u 2 come over,later u complain about taxi fare. =)


Everton: I asked u 3 Qs n waited for u whole night, u just say taxi fare. It's says alot right? N I thought u fell asleep. Nvm, thx. If I put u in a dilemma, I'm sorry..


Everton: Then when can i meet u during evening? Dun have to think so hard n so long ba. Dun worry i won't eat u up.. Let me know ba.


Me:Dis evening? I dun tink i can make it . Got stuff to do. Hmm how abt other days. Din ans e other 2 qns coz last nite I was with diane 2 east coast. We talked and finally i gt 2 noe wad she wants. So.. yup.


Everton: Definitely not today. Fri? Weekends? Or early next week. U let me know when u free lo. So u both officially together le ma?


Me: fri - got dinner appt. Sat - got event. Next wk prehaps. Meet up for dinner or?


Everton: Dunno. We decide as it draw nearer ba. Maybe dinner n movie if time allows? Early next week huh?


Me: tot u have to be home by 10?


Everton: See how lo. Cos recently i work till 10.30 then head home ma. So.. Can ba..


Me: ok.. see ya next wk. just the 2 of us rite? or u wan me to bring her along?


Everton: U officially with her le huh?


Me: hmmm dun tink so...


Everton: Then wat is it between u 2 now?


Me: Seeing each other? Close?


Everton: Ok then.. Then we dun meet le la. :)


Me: Huh? How come????


Everton: Nothing. It's ok. U know. It's worst when u ask to bring her along.. :) It's
ok. U will ever understand... :) be happy ba..


Me: No no.. tot u mite wan to c her. Ok. Next wk den.


Everton: Dun wan la. Cancel. i already tell u it hurts to even hear about u 2. Now u wan show me somemore. I Dun wan. N since u gers advancing well. Dun let me come btwn.


Everton: :) U take care of urself k? Be Xing fu. Be happy :)


Me: U too


Everton: In case u dunno. I'm trying to come between u 2. I wan snatch u away from her. Keep u for myself. Ha. I'm evil. So dun come meet me k? Won't do u good.. :)


Me: Hmm.. nah.. u dun haf that intention. I know u juz wanna meet me for dinner & movie.


Everton: Nope.. I really have that intention. Trust me. I wan u for myself. I'm serious. See u for wat?


Everton: Now then I realised how much I needed u, love u. But it's all too late now. I'm sorry for hurting you. I know I shouldn't be pestering u but I really misses u. Sorry.


Me: Maybe wad u really need is not me? If it was me, u would have realised it bk then.


Everton: I asked twice over msn but u never response. Now I'm asking early n asking here. Can i go over in the morning? Tml morning ba. Can?


Me: Sorry, fell aslp last nite. Very tired after the swim. Juz saw ur msn. Hmm Wad do u wanna do if u were 2 come over? Continue ur slp? Might as well slp at home?


Everton: At least I can get to hug u.. Will u hug me if i go over?


Everton: I know u dun believe that i miss u. Dun believe that I still want u. Dun believe that I still love u. All i ask now is a chance to prove to u. Not coz of looks.


Me: I know its definitely nt becoz of the looks. I dun have it. Not that I dun wan to give u chance. I gave. Weder Diane wud accept me anot. I just wan to concentrate on her.


Everton: How come u seems to avoid all my questions? :( Haiz. Is it i don't have the chance anymore? Even so, i need time. Haiz.. I can't forget bout u.. :(


Everton: U gave? Last time? Now no more? ur heart with her le right? :( I can feel now that u really in love with her n I'm like the extra i. She's all u care now rite?


Everton: Just 2 very simple questions. Do u still wan to be with me? Do u wan me to hold on to u or should I move on? Just answer me these 2 questions will do.


Me: Pls move on.


Everton: Ok, thanks. Then pls grant my wish to go over for the last time tml morning. Is that ok? After that, I won't disturb u again le. :(


Me: Think maybe u dun come over bah. Sorry. Dun wish to hurt diane in any ways even though me and her r not together.


Everton: Remember ur lunch later.. N pls confirm if i can go over tml morning..


Everton: Ok lo.. I very jealous of her.. Things u will do for her r much more than me. Haiz.. I will wait for u.. if u both dun work, please give me a chance k? Meanwhile, i'll keep my options open n I will go try with others ba. Haiz. I can't balme anyone but myself. :( U take care ba. I got to move on I guess.. :(



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Things are finally over, settled. I am glad. =)

11th Post

I am a happy Baboyy.

(Please take note that "Baboyy" has two "y" in it.)

Last night, went home after work. Didn't go out with anyone because.....

part of me - tired

part of me - hoping that someone will ask me out la. Not that I don't know how to ask her out, but... maybe just afraid that baboyy will get sick & tired of going out with me. =X

Waited almost 45 minutes for the bus!!! WAH LAU! Can die loh.

So, while waiting for the bus, I re-read all the smses sent by Baboyy.

We started smsing each other on 3rd of October.

Re-reading all her smses has become a habit.

Something which will makes me smile.

When I reached home, I smsed her and asked if she got anything on after the dinner. Yes, Finally, I got the courage to ask her out. Haha..

Went to pick her up at around 11plus.

Went ECP.

Bought drinks from 7-11 before we drove to those free parking areas which are nearer to the beach.

Initially, we thought of sitting somewhere near the beach. But half way while walking, it started to drizzle.

Baboyy kept asking me how come never plan properly. =X

I never bring gal to beach before mah!! How would I know how to plan properly. =X

right?

So we walked back to the car, intend to just chat in the car.

Learnt about the history before baboyy and her the other 2 good friends.

Interesting fact.

Attached for two years. And her first boyfriend only get to hug her at the graduation.

OMG. Plus no kiss? OMG!!!

I wonder how her boyfriend can wait that long. =X

Yes yes, attempted to kiss her again.

=X

We hugged, and she said she feel secure =X.

HEHEHEHE I am a happy baboyy.

At 1 part, she was trying to tell me something. Mood was correct, timing was correct. But.. when she was trying to say the most important sentence, the music from the player suddenly got louder. I missed!

=X

So I asked her to repeat.

=X

Think she said something like, if she doesn't want to do certain things, she won't do it. Nobody can make her do it too.

She is doing it because she wants to do it. She likes me.

=X

SUPER HAPPY BABOYY!

Hehe..

But... before I get way too happy, that baboyy just simply loves to tease me.

She asked 1 question which made me blush instantly.

Don't I realised that there's a difference between with response and without response.

And it seems that I like to kiss her even though that there's no response at her side.

Well well.. of course I know there's differences la.

Of course, I would prefer her to have responses la.. But I can't force her to response mah!!

DUH. -.-'''

Was stunned when she kisses me on my lips!

Was totally stunned.

=X

Didn't expect that she will do that. =X

Went home around 4am. I know.. its late especially when she got to work the next following day.

But, time always seem to fly whenever I am with her alone. Is there a "stop" button for me to press so that I can spend time with her without having to worry that she will get too tired for work?

Held her hand while driving back.

She kissed me on my cheeks before she alight. Awwwww

OH YA!! 1 very important thing which definitely have to be blogged down.

I said, I want baboyy, Can?

She nodded her head.

HEHEHE

Though, hmmmm hmmmmm.. never mind. I am still happy.

Off day today. Went to swim. HEHE....

Washed clothes and out for dinner..

Baboyy is out with her ate(s)...

Shall wait for her to reach home.. No car tonight.. =(

I miss baboyy!!!! alot!!!

10th Post - Fallin By Janno Gibbs

Recommended by Jho.

Not bad.. Quite nice..

9th Post

Wah wah wah!!

It has been ages since my last post!!

Lots of things, activities have taken place!

Shall post it in point-form manner. Pardon me!

1st Nov 08
- Celebrated Baboyy, Step and Lawrence's Birthday at Mel's Place
- Got High & Drunk.
- Got caught smoking. Somehow, which is also the reason as of why I am drunk.
- Got wasted.
- Baboyy took care of me.
- Sis drove me and Step back to Step's place. Apparently, she was drunk too.
- Took lots of pictures.
- Video of drunken bolera were taken. No sharing of these videos.

2nd Nov 08
- Went FGS for special praying event.
- Decided to go cause baboyy and aunt's birthday falls in Nov. Thus, went there to pray for them. - After FGS, sent sis to taka and sent granny home. Went home by bus.
- Took uncle's car.
- Dated Baboyy out for movie, dinner.
- Went to The Cathay to watch The Coffin.
- Brought her to Golden Mile Complex for my all-time favourite steamboat.
- Saw Gillyn there.
- Chatted about out past and family history.
- Sent her home around 10.30pm.
- Was jokingly saying that the traffic was super smooth that day. No red lights at junction.
- Baboyy said she can don't go home yet unless I am in a hurry to go somewhere else.
- Parked car at her house's car park there. Chatted till 1.30am.
- I held her hand again.
- She lean her head on my shoulder when I was showing her the video on my phone.
- She said thank you again.
- Felt closer that night.
- But still doesn't have the courage to kiss her.
- We hugged before she alight.

3rd Nov 08
- didn't get to see her after work. Only caught glimpse of her during meeting.
- Messaged her that I was feeling dizzy after dinner.
- She smsed a couple of times.
- Was she worried?
- hmmmm, I guess so. =x
- Chatted awhile before we went to sleep.

4th Nov 08
- Went to play badminton with her, don and Jho.
- Court was somewhere near Don's place.
- Had fun playing with her, errr.. I mean them.
- Went West Coast to eat mac.
- Puked again.
- Don sent me back after that.
- Simply love seeing her.

5th Nov 08
- Off day
- Did not message her much.
- We talked during night time.
- Wasn't happy that don was using her phone to pretend to be her and sms me.
- She told me that she miss me.
- Happy happy.

6th Nov 08
- Went out for dinner after work
- Baboyy went CCK for dinner.
- Borrowed car from uncle
- Picked her from CCK.
- Was chatting in the car before I called jho out for supper.
- To our surprise, Jho actually said Ok.
- Hahaha
- Brought them to kallang MAC.
- Had late supper there.
- Sent them back around 2plus.
- Baboyy was really tired.
- Hugged me before she alighted.
- Gave me a quick kiss on my neck. According to her, kiss on neck is meant for grandmother. hmmm Oh well. =/

7th Nov 08
- Bad day. Mom went hospital for check ups.
- Leg got mysterious bruise.
- Arm injuried.
- Went home after work.
- Baboyy went orchard for dinner with Don they all.
- After their dinner, they went Cineleisure for games.
- Went there to look for her.
- Sent them back. Them as in Don, MZ, YC and of course, Baboyy.
- Was around 2am when we reached her place.
- Thought she will be too tired to chat with me.
- But she didn't alight immediately when we reached.
- Parked her car and we chatted.
- At first, she started the ball rolling by asking me about what happened in showroom. Why did me and jho said we will be meeting at 12am. I asked if she was jealous, she said no.
- Then we started talking about my mom's case and etc.
- We got closer. I held her hand. She lean her head on my shoulder. Slightly different from the previous time. We were much closer.
- We started talking about our feelings for each other.
- I told her how I felt about her, and she did reveal part of her feelings to me.
- She said I was selfish. And she explained why.
- She said I got other gals, I got Stef and now I got diane.
- Though I did not tell her directly and personally at that point of time. But..
- I only want Diane.
- She said she was scared.
- I asked why scared.
- She said she is scared cause she is afraid that if she's there, and what will happen to her if I am not there.
- I told her that I wont leave her alone. Will be there when she's there.
- At that point, I had my arms around her.
- Kissed her a couple of times on her forehead
- Kissed her right cheeks once.
- Attempted 7 times to kiss her on her lips.
- Attempted the 8th time before I finally get to kiss her.
- Kissed her a couple more times.
- A lil wet kiss before she "pushed" me away.
- Love it when she was near.
- Went crazy when we were physically close.
- She went home at 4am SHARP. haha.. stupid joke on this word.

8th Nov 08
- Baboyy went to have dinner with her friends at Bugis.
- After the dinner, she went Jho's place (Jho's room mate was having house party)
- I went to watch tropic thunder. Funny show.
- Went home after the show.
- Messaged her.
- She was tired. Thus didn't talk much on the phone.

9th Nov 2008
- Guess what.... I've overslept. WOKE UP AT 10am. ARGH...!

Baboyy Diane. I miss u. =(

8th Post

hmmm...

I am actually jealous over a very small issue.

7th Post

So....

Those empty smses were sent because you don't know how to reply when I said I have fallen in love with you.

I thought.. those smses were sent because you were jealous of Everton.

Jho has told me those things which I should know.

It's all one sided from my side, right?

You could have told me directly. Maybe you are scared to tell me the truth..

It's really okay. We can't force people to do things which they don't like.

I can't force you to like me.

I can't force you to accept me.

It's really alright.

After tonight, I will stop my pestering behaviour.

After tonight, I promise that things will resume back to normal.

After tonight, I won't pester you via phone calls or smses.

After tonight, Jk is just another UM of yours.

6th Post

Baboyy!!!

Excited?

One more day to your birthday!!!

Hahaha… My presents are ready!!

So excited now. Can’t wait to see you. Can’t wait to see your expression upon seeing those presents!

=)

Baboyy, I am not sure if you have felt the same. Maybe yes, maybe not.

The “likings” feeling seems to have multiplied each day.

I feel closer to you.

The other day, when you and Jho came over to my place. I was really happy over the fact that you are actually visiting my place, to see my messy room. You have even sat on my bed!

Haha..

Touched your hand again that day. Hmmm you did not pull your hand off. But like that they said, holding hands is a very normal act.

You confessed that you were jealous, but you have no rights to be jealous.

You have. Cause the one I fancy is you. Not everton.

You have also said that you don’t own me, and I don’t own you.

Is it because I am attached?

I asked if you can don’t give Ray chance.

After talking awhile, you said you are also as selfish as me.

What does that mean?

Went to get present (to be shared between Don and Me) with Amelia last night.

We talked about you during dinner.

She asked me to limit my actions. Treating you as a good friend is good enough. Nothing more than that.

I was devastated when I heard that.

Am I really wrong to be nice to you?

Is it a wrong thing to make you fall for me?

I called Joanne. She did not say anything much except advising me to let nature takes its own course.

Should I stop everything now? Stop being nice to you? Stop showering you with attention?

The thought of stopping really upset me a lot.

Baboyy.. I smsed you, asking you if you believe that I have feelings for you.

You replied, do you really have?

Quite disappointing.

Thought you would have known my feelings by now?

Baboyy, tell me should I stop?

Anyway, tonight is going to be the night! The night which I have spent days and weeks to plan.

Really hope that you will enjoy every single moment.

It might be my last chance of being close to you.

Hope you like the racket which is from Don and me. It’s in Green and White.

Hope you like the CD which I have specially prepared. Yes, I slept at 8am. Was trying to get the song and pictures arranged.

Hope you like the box of kit kat.

Lastly, hope you will like the cross pendant and the chain. Not too sure if you can wear jewellery. Was afraid that you might be sensitive to silver so got you white gold instead.

Diane, I am serious about you. But it is okay if you don’t feel the same. I can always be your UM, you being one of my most hardworking colleague.

Baboyy, happy birthday.

5th Post

5 more days to go!!

Hahaha... Need to get preparation for the birthday card by tonight. Hopefully can draft out one raw video and finished the card by tonight.

Had dinner with you and gang on Monday.

Nice... Can see you again... haa.. Sat beside you.. but stupid baboyy put her bag on the chair and placed the chair in between us. =/

Stupid Baboyy. But guess your presence is sufficient. Not necessary have to sit really close.

With Gina around, there's bound to have laughter. I am glad that we all had fun during the dinner.

Chatted with you till 4plus this morning.

Wasn't feeling sleepy but got to hang up as need to wake up early for work.

Well well, guess it's okay so long you got enough sleep. Since it's your off, you will sure have plenty of sleep to compensate what you have missed. Hahaha

12.29pm now.. No sms from you.. Guess you must be still sleeping or busy with your housework or... too lazy to reply. Haha.. you are a lazy baboyy.

So you have gotten your first birthday celebration yesterday. Sounds fun. Hope you have enjoyed yourself.

Friday, will be our turn to surprise you. Hope you will like what we will be preparing for you.

Oh ya...!! I am super happy. Received a total of 8 videos from your family!!

Jho teared when she was watching the videos.

Hope you will like it.

In fact, I thought of getting you an air ticket for you to go back to PHP on sat, then return on Sun.

But it might be too rush for you to go, too short as ell. Thus, I dropped the idea.

Was thinking how I can actually get you a very meaningful present.

Was inspired by the scrap book which you and Jho have given me on my birthday.

I decided to get pictures of your family members and make a video out of it.

Then later on, I realised.. videos of your family members, sending you wishes would be a much better idea. Thus... tadaa... Mission completed.

Gotten videos from your sister. She has been really helpful.

Received one last video from your sister today. She took a video of herself. And she cried at the end of the video.

Jho cried after watching. I was touched.

Do you know why and I was being attracted to you?

The way you treat and take care of your family members, how you support your siblings, your capability, your optimistic nature, your sense of responsibility, being caring, sweet and helpful are some of the good points which you possess.

Like what I have mentioned in my sms. I have fallen for you.

=)

Was really happy to receive those smses from you. They mean alot to me.

and.. i am missing you again. haha..

tata..

4th post

7 more days to your BIG BIG DAY!!!

But it will be 6 more days left for us to prepare or rather or me to prepare.

Was shopping around for your present last night after work.

Wanted to get you a cross pendant and a chain from Citigem. (Joanne was saying Taka jewellery quality is not very up to standard.)

Saw one which I think suits you. Didn't buy it because Jho was asking me to look around first, before making the purchase decision.

She suggested a watch. Asked me why I don't want to get a watch since you are not having one now.

Hmmmm Not too sure why. But was thinking, a chain necklace with a pendant might be a better idea? Keep you safe and sound?

Hmmmm....

We'll see how..

Will browse on web to see what other gift ideas are available.

Hmmmm... some baboyy didn't know that yesterday her family members celebrated her grandparent 50 anniversary? (that's according to what your sister sms and what Jho has translated)

Hmmmm, your sister mentioned that there might be some short videos which she can send us.

Guess it will be very sweet and nice to see your family in video.. isn't it.

Let's just keep our fingers crossed for now.

Hopefully I'll get some good stuff from your sister.

Will start compiling all the photos tonight.

Since I am going to be off on Wednesday, I shall do the video on Tuesday night. Show Joanne they all on Thursday and do final touch up before Friday morning. This shall be the plan.

Was smiling away when I received your sms last night. You asked if I'm home and told me that movie was nice and fun.

Didn't really expect you to message me after your movie.. Thus, it was a very sweet and pleasant surprise.

As usual, we have our sms chat before turning in for the night.

Finally, told you the reasons why I have been pushing Ray and Wee to you.

Was advised by Vincent they all not to tell you that I've feelings for you (which I've already did).

I am glad that you are not affected by what they have said.

Was rather happy when you told me that you will miss me if I were to stop smsing/calling you.

Anyway, glad that everything is ok now. No more dilemma for me. No more headache to choose whether to put a stop on everything.

Happy happy..

Your Jho has been smiling at me for no reasons. She is weird today. Must be her boyfriend.

Let's hope that she can continue to stay happy. Haha..

If not, she can consider me... haha I am not bad too. And i know you won't be jealous.

Right? right?? right???

baboyy....!!

3rd Post

Should I or Should I not?

Should I continue to stay close to you and enjoy every single moments....

Or Should I stop staying close to you and .... give the chance to others?

Dilemma.

Anyway 7 more days to your birthday.

Haven't gotten anything from your sister.

Wondering if the pictures which I have, are sufficient for making the touching video clip...

Haven't plan for your presents yet.

It seems like a lot of people will want to celebrate with you...

Ms Popular Baboyy.

Wondering if you will still notice my existence among the bunch of people.

Guess it will be insignificant.

You have told Don that you would want to celebrate your birthday on Saturday. Dinner and drinking.

You have told Don that you would want a guitar or a Badminton racket.

Jho and Joanne have mentioned that they will buy presents on their own. Thus, won't be sharing with us.

Don doesn't mind to get you the racket. As for guitar, it seems a little over everyone's budget.

I shall go over to Peninsula Plaza later to check out the average prices. See if I can squeeze out some extra cash from the next coming pay. But I guess.. hmmm tough.

Wanted to either get you a watch or a necklace.

Intended to buy a big box of Kit-Kat (ah.. this reminds me that someone is a super duper greedy baboyy, kit kat lover), and place the main present inside the box.

Good surprise? It will only consider good if you are really surprised by it.

Let's see what other stuff I can do for you.

(I'll do anything to bring smiles to your face. =D)

Not too sure how I get the courage to hold your hand yesterday. But the feeling is absolutely great. I wonder it's something which I might not have 2nd chance to do it again. But I really love this feeling. =) Though... you seemed to pull your hand off after that. Hmmmm

Ok, got to get back to the back of sales counter and start chiong-ing for my GP.

I didn't sms you this morning. Thought you will. But you didn't.

I miss you. =/

Wonder why I am super moody today.

Argh. Darn it.

2nd post

Initially, I have wanted to at least write a post per day to keep this blog alive and active till your birthday.

Haha.. Judging at the date, you would know that I have failed. Once again.

Been busy these while. With all the MISC things on my to-do list. I am going crazy.

Our smses conversation has been regular and rather stable now. I like this feeling. Serious.

There are nights when I managed to get you to say things... which are definitely enough to make me smile non stop. Haha.. I have kept all your messages in 1 folder. Day 1 till today.

So when I am feeling moody, or need things to perk me up, I will open that folder and re-read all the messages which you have sent.

Hahaha.. I know it's rather lame. Well well.. I just like it this way.

Clarified with you on the "best friend" sms..

Ah... Like what I have guessed. You really don't understand that message. No wonder your reply was so disappointing.

=)

Anyway, things are clear now. Good.

Had a talk with you last night.. (I love talking to you over the phone. Don't have to blush or feel uneasy)

You mentioned that you want to get a guitar. But as it is going to be expensive thus, you wanted to get the guitar yourself.

Hmmmm.. shall see what kind of good deals we can get, before the folks decide whether to pump in money.

Hmmm...

First Post

Dear Miss Diane,

This blog has been created by me to blog everything and anything about you or associated to you.

Pardon me for my bad English even though it is not my worst subject in school.

It has been awhile since that day. (which day... hmmmmm... shall leave this to your creative thinkings)

A lot of things have changed.

I am no longer contacting any of my short term flings.

Stopped contacting Everton gal even when she requested me to continue to stay close to her.

Told Jho that I have no idea what is happening to me.

Started this weird behavior even since you did not say anything when I asked if it's okay for me to go after you.

Haa..

Maybe I just want to be serious for once?

But Jho said not to be too serious. Just enjoy the process.

I'm enjoying and I am not expecting anything in return. So no worries.

=)

Anyway, exactly 12 more days to your birthday!

I wasn't there to plan something nice for the past 21 years.

Late is better than never.

I'll plan something nice for you starting from this year. And hopefully, I'll get to plan something next year.. next next year... and more.

=)

In fact, few days ago, me and Jho have started on our mission impossible.

She has copied down your sister and mom's Philippines contact numbers.

We will try to get them to email us some photos. It will be best if they can mail us some videos.

I'm going to do something to make sure you cry upon seeing it.

Yes.

More things to be planned.

Cake. Yup, got the idea of what to do for a chocoholic like you.

So, Ms dha. Please sit back and enjoy all these which are specially planned for you.